Sunday, November 29, 2009

so big. so angry. so dead.

sis is a control freak. always comparing me with her "2 years ago". what a twat.

"mummy only started letting me stay out after midnight after i turned 21!"
OR
"i used to only get $100 a month last time when i was in jc why u get $150 still complain!"

just examples. but stuff like that urghhh. and now she wants to have a say in who i choose for a girlfriend?! dont u hate it when ppl impose their ideals on you. move with the times man! last time policemen wore shorts, but obviously not today! hurhurrrrr.

mkt exam was gggggggggg i can fly kite already. arghhhh. shit wasted such an easy paper.

and i some ppl dont have the slightest common sense in the world by parking their car in front of my front gate. retard! i think chock sebas and laimeng were discussing ytd about MS is true hahaha those ppl just have stupidity in their genes. hmmz im feeling damn bitchy now whyyyyy!

tp gang surprised me at my house last night omg! i was damn shocked! and i even had a pore pack on my nose when they arrived LOL. then i had to rush to peel it off before going down to meet them. but TOO LATE jieying saw it already when i stood at my room window! shat. yays they got me the arc mouse ive been wanting for some time! and a PURPLE one! heh im using it now. niceeee! uber touched man even though they could be like mugging for their paper next week but still! and they call themselves coconut jackfruit lemon cherry HAHA. why no jambu! lollll. omg i didnt know jackfruit was 1.70m tall omg thats taller than me!

ogay i feel damn lazy now i got MLE on monday 9am but im still not studying for ittt.

no kick no kick no kick NOW I GOT KICKED DAMMIT.

and countdown to standard chartered: 1 WEEK! goodluckxzxz i can go for big walk instead.

so pretty. so smart.
what a waste of a young heart.

Friday, November 27, 2009

i must be crazy or im a genius

zomggg after maths paper ytd i went to meet banny and we went to play l4d2!!! wth man as if my exams are over hahHaha. damnnnn funnn! and we went to play more today cos we couldnt complete a mission in 1 hr ytd! wheeeeeeee. can pick up guitar as melee weapons GUITAR HEROES! and its nice cos its like so much more realistic! shttt i cant wait to play again.

we watched the informant yesterday too. some uber confusing show abt a guy with bipolar disorder. hahaha like ris low.

okok maths paper was GG. i hope i actually dont FAIL this module siazz. omg ppl are hoping for an A and im hoping for a pass?!

and i only found out today that tmr is a public holiday!

ohh and found out there's sitex going on from today till the weekend! i wish i had the time to go down and get stuff. and a mouse :(

and i didnt mention this in my previous post but im extremely grateful to claudio laimeng and jieying for contributing for my petrol xoxo! yes i wont spend it on dating slim or whoever hahaha.

oh ya and today i saw this guy who was wearing this tshirt which said "kick me" on its back. wahh damn tempting lol.

OMG ZOMBIEEEESSSS

Monday, November 23, 2009

archilles tendon?

oomg i went to google foot pain and i m getting freaked out by the search results. they all look pretty nasty :( i needa miracle. for both my foot and exams.

perspective is a lovely hand to hold

studystudystudy! been studying with booza ppl the past few days and its definitely better than staying at home! like see what am i doing now when i should be studying urgh. dave's parents were out the past 2 days so he invited us over. and his parents were bought us nasilemak and yummmy portuguese egg tarts. gdstuffzzz.

yay first paper down.

met peiyu and sebas for supper on sat at hv! we spied the 881 actress omg totally disappointed she likes alternative lifestyle :( and went to pick alvin from airport the next morning. haha slept like only 3 hrs plus i think? then the whole day was damn shag. churched, mum's bday lunch, study at dave's house till 1 plus. GG.

anw went finally got to see what republic poly looks like inside. damn chio!

ohmanzaa should i go killers concert??

and WHY ISIT ALWAYS RAINING ARGH. and whats frickin puzzling me is HOW THE HECK DID I TWIST/SPRAIN MY ANKLE IN MY SLEEP! i woke up this morning with a sprained left ankle and i cant walk properly wth! paranormal activity sia. maybe i sleepwalked and dropped off the bed?!! arghhhh so pissing now i cant go and run. maybe its good so i can stay at home and study more haha. and lucky its left leg not right.

ps. bitching really brings ppl together! naasty.

alvin said i looked slimmer HAHA and his cathigh friend thought im his brother (?!) maybe cos we're both blackies.

ok back to MA 1505 i cant believe the number of new discoveries im still making even at this time.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

boomz

car accident is naaassty. it gets worse if the other party is a WOMAN (a menopausal one to be precise). what a whore. good thing chock was there with me. haha he says if he was the one driving things would have surely gotten physical. damn hyundai getzzzzzz kiss my ass! literally, it kissed my front bumper dammit.

but booza and tp gang especially were really niceee!

i should really stop staying up so late and do some productive studying in the daytime! i seem to be taking this finals too easy manzz diedie.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

say you feel the same way

mugmugmuggggggggg my brains goin crazy! but woohoo gonna meet benny later and watch 2012 (?)

made a new friend from my neighbourhood this week during one of my late night runs hahaha. had just finished my 5k and was at the fitness corner doing some statics when i heard this random voice from behind me "training for ippt ah?" turns out he's this guy same age as me who stays nearby too. cool and nice dude haha. he added me on fb.

baked choc chip mufffins - one of the easiest and yummiest recipes i know! fruit tart next time!

kevin owes me some info!!

oh yes i skyped with jason tooo. haha sucha faggot.

didnt go running with limpei :ppp

i found out angelina jolie got new movie coming soon hahaha

and natalie portman too and tobey mcguire!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

you're all the welfare pack i need

yayness athlete snowpat dashboardconfessional!! wheeee i made 2nd contact with ___! eggciting zomg! studying with boomza rocks too. went changi ytd for pop eyes hahaha diet starts tmr?! and omg im hooked on icy tower wth! its like sec sch game all over again! lucky not gunbound :p okay this is a pretty incoherent post.

at least, i got my first A for marketing group assignment woohooz!

ATHLETEEEEEEEE!

Monday, November 09, 2009

understanding in a car crash

had a seriously real dream last night. and i woke up believing it happened. dreamt i was going to beho's house i think, after school, with a bunch of sas guys. and i dunno why i let malcolm drive my car there and he floored the accelerator all the way and i was panicking but didnt say a word hahaha.

Friday, November 06, 2009

how was your weekend? -GOOD.

OKAYS im finally blogging. arghhh i hatemyself. sighsss its too late now :(

i finally got to talk to yusof (yusof ishak house = YIH if u get what i mean) hauhauheuahuh i think i have a weird ability of coming up with random nicknames for ppl. jieying best doing maths then see LIMITS also can link to something else wahpiangzz.

i think i wont blog too in too much detail also hahaha i think my blog is unsafe already u never know WHO IS READING! :P OK LA ACTUALLY TRUTH IS IM JUST LAZY.

anyways i think i owe jieying a treat hahaha. treat ice water?

celebrated seb soh's bdayyy with pink bra and panties hahaha nasty. and met peiyu for soupspooooon last night finally i get to eat velvety mushrooom! but it doesnt seem so nice anymore haha. meatless minestrone next timeee. and hardbooger! and we had yummss redbean mochi thing and sesame icecream woohoo! and we planned to surprise but we ourselves got surprised instead hahaha! CLAM CHOWDER LEHHH. i went funan wanting to get a new mouse for myself. was looking at the arc mouse heehee but omg its $78! after discount! hmmm im really going broke :( maybe i shouldnt upgrade my car audio system so soon. cos i just got a new 500gb portable harddisk. which im still formatting now wah take damn long lehhh. i hope can finish before i set off for sch lolll if not i gotta leave my comp at home. and it came with a FREE mouse. but its a wired optical mouse. ok la the shape quite similar to my previous mouse. but i think laser mouse better than optical soo yeah and i want a wireless one so wont keep tangling with the cables. easier to carry to sch too! *OH OH MY ITUNES IS PLAYING THE SMITHS - THERE IS A LIGHT THAT NEVER GOES OUT NOWWW! <3* ~to die by your side, is such a heavenly way to dieeee~ hahaha omg summer. new movie to add to my collection haha! ok back to wireless mouse, yea. niceee i shall go back when im feeling richer to get the $78 (hopefully its still on offer) arc mouse!

hmm oh ya the day before i randomly saw rong in sch as i was rushing to lt11 for seb soh's bday thing. from across the rd! hmm i wonder is this the first time i actually randomly saw her in sch hahahaha INDIAN DANCE!

okok la ENGING OWEEK BBQ. at first was quite boringgg. cos like i went with jieying then i didnt know anyone else there. besides kenneth the swimmer (haha) and chesscamp ppl but they were under different committee. but jieying intro-ed me to some of her friends yiii huiii, yan tian, congren, kai chen, still got some others but i cant rmb the name lol. and songkiu of course. wah austen didnt come hahaha so sad he missed out :p gradually ppl left, and in the end only left all the engin club ppl plus me jieying and her dear friend yihui. then we left at like around 10, after her dad picked her up. haha she offered a lift to sunset way and jy almost burst out laughing HAHAHA. omggg i must get fullmarks for finals!! and i still rmb jieying said something abt low profile pageant guy hahaha walao indirectly shooting ppl leh. boomz.

err haha i havent finished writing bout ytd! after we failed to surprise rong at sde, me and peiyu went to join booza ppl to mug! i finally actually understood something after maths chapter 7! woohoo! sharon and laimeng kept trying to spook me out with 123456 walaooo.

sad and broke. i went swimming this morning to cheer myself up aha but it started raining halfway when i was in the pool walao. no sun! shattt i totally shouldnt have signed up for stand chart sia where got time to train! im going to die after 10km mark i think lollll. maybe i can be fastest WALKER la.

wahhh formatting like still got 20% to gooo. i dont think its gonna finish before 3 dammit. okbye! got free dinner tonight yeay i must learn to be a cheapo already :p

Sunday, November 01, 2009

she's got you high

songs of desperation
i played them for you
a moment, a love
a dream, aloud
a kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs

so stay there
cause i'll be coming over
and while our blood's still young
it's so young, it runs
and won't stop till it's over
won't stop to surrender

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stormtrooper

argh i still want my stormtrooper jacket alot alot though its been like almost a year!!

how the star wars madness started:

htht (head to head talk) at gardens last night was ahem insightful. but i still feel some things are better left unsaid.

maybe thats why i appear like an unemotional cool doode (i wish haha) but i cant stand feeling vulnerable. after what many rounds of the same thing.

and arghhh my life sucks okay i wanna beeeech abt my sis again shes driving me nuts! "i dowan i dowan i dowan" "dont bully me" x10000000

my wakeboarding is n00bz whyyyyyyy! maybe i cant balance my cg well hurhur flat feet sucks la okay.

and i didnt meet benny this week :( shucks i feel bad. army really sucks i know and i experienced it when all i wanted to do was meetup with friends on the weekends but only to find out they already have their schedules packed with stuff (new friends/projects/mugging).

i think something happened to my forearm during wakeboarding ahhhh! now i have problem gripping things like clenching my fist! i tried doing chin-up last night and i dropped like after 2 counts?! and its cos i cant maintain my grip not cos of no strength arghhhh irritatin. recover soon pls!

heheh on a happier note, bimbo is damn ermmm bimbotic (?) these few days! yayyy love bimbo! he's almost a year old!

SDC15251

Friday, October 30, 2009

ocean wide

omg im back! amazed that ppl can still randomly stumble upon my blog hahaha eggciting. anw i got gdstuffz to share hahahaha. SOME IDIOT NAMED CALEB WONG ADDED ME ON FACEBOOK OMMGGGWTHBBQ! check this out:

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and his display pic is a kerokeropi hahahahahah what a weirdu! ps, keropi is a FROG :P

and gdstuffz at oweek meeting today woohooooooooooo now someone (im not saying who but u should know this person very well) remembers my name hahahaha!

and yeay most of my projects are done! only left oral defence next fri.

kickass!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

come along with me

all the winds that you rise

looking at happy pictures make me.. sad.

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

survive

omg im back here again! actually its not that i dont have time to blog. i could sacrifice some of my daily facebook time to do that hahaha! and my last update is like 1 month ago siazz. so much happened since then.

like getting my swift!

been hanging out alot with booza ppl recently. somehow there is a difference between them and the chess camp ppl haha. its not a matter of which is better la, just different. chess ppl more work focused and booza is more enjoyment haha!

the central library has become my fav hangout seriously. i think ppl have spotted me there alone many times already zzzzz but what to do. i go take modules alone so toot. aiya but getting used to it.

hate the system of printing our own notes. i cant wait to get a new printer!

and petrol is not THAT ex, but not cheap either. i spend like $50 a week on petrol now la. which is abt cents per km travelled? i dunno its not a good average cos i only topped up once. must have larger number of tests then got accurate average right hahaha. and i had actually planned to like collect abit of cash for sending ppl home to support my petrol expenses. but its dam hard to ask this kinda thing so everytime i i just let it slide. and i havent collected a single cent! sheeez.

hmm oh ya my bday surprise by peiyu and kevin was awesome! i really liked the watermelon idea haha! chess ppl also celebrated with me by having lunch at holland that day. and booza ppl got a sara lee cheesecake for me in sch.

and today was lymon's bday and i had to drive to vivo to buy cake! drove serene there and met alfred n joshua there. lunch was a HUGE carl's jr portobello mushroom burger omg. but not bad. then we got the cake from han's. chionged back 30min late for lecture sia. then sat at front row some more. damn AA la walk in with a helium minnie mouse balloon and cake and alfred carrying a filet-o-fish meal cos he havent had lunch. AAAAAA to the max. and during the 10min break during lecture, we sang happy bday for him and cut cake. and forced lymon to give a slice to the lecturer steven halim HAHAHA. score points sia!

met rong at sde today too! hahaha studied in her studio for awhile then brought her to see the sweeee(f)t, as she calls it. she wears specs now! and omg i seriously didnt recognise her the 1st time i saw her from far away. lol i thought is some random china girl :ppp

oh ya met reo at vivo today too!

and yay photos of engin bash are up! :ppp today i had matlab tutorial then i kept getting distracted by the who lorzzzzz omg.

2 weeks to recess week! 1 week to EG assignment deadline OMG.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

perishers, my heart

ok since i have some time before i leave for school. MAJOR :(

camps are OVER! made a few new friends, and i think im not exaggerating if i say my uc og is the most happening one. hahaha hope it stays like this though i highly doubt so now that sch has started. they planned a weekly lunch on thursdays yay now i dont have to have a 3 hr break ALONE.

facebook is damn irritating now. i cant spy as much as i used to hahaha. dammit la i cant click on any of the links. only can see my own home page walao!

oweek was ok. i missed like half of it haha. but i dont think im that close to them. but the ogl jun jie damn power la! so slack also can win best ogl award. some more when they announced his name he was outside the hall slacking and someone from my group had to go out and call him lol!!

dad wanted to bring me to suzuki showroom ytd! but he didnt :( cos he came back from malaysia at night. haha and then when i took the car to drive meet kevin, i realised he was listening to the cd i burned and put in the car! hahaha happening sia. yeah so i picked kevin from town and drove him home. and yay he passed me his OMG like 10 textbooks. and 3 or 4 plastic bags of notes. HAHAHA THANKS KEV!

and ytd i ran 19km wheee im ready for AHM THIS SUNDAY JUST BRING IT!! haha maybe i can get to run with banny! ok i promise myself no more suppers lol. had too much this month with all the og outings and all laaaaa! fong seng kiss my assssss! :p

OK i should get changed. cant be late on 1st day! and im not gona fall asleep and drool either :ppppp ok wait before that i gotta figure out how to get to LT 6 from kent vale.

Friday, August 07, 2009

swimmers

alrighty here's my ideal bday list! im not asking anyone to plan a last min party for me or anything ok! just doing this for funnn.

+ FRIENDS! best if jason could be here hahaha but thats obviously not gonna happen.
- none of my ex eye candies plss it would be just so weird. what am i gonna say, like "hi i used to stalk you every day in school" LOL.
+ great music
- dress theme. simple clothes would be great! haha if not everyone would be stressing over stuff like "omg i only got one purple top how to go for caleb's PURPLE PARTY"
- not at my house pls its too messy and im too embarrassed to reveal its messiness to anyone other than my close friends
** shitt im having a really hard time doing this list i cant think of anything!! zzzzzzz.
+ OK i would like great presents duhhhh. like a car?!!!! HAHAHA
+ NO END TIME! goodbyes are just plain weird.
+ potluck for food would be nice :p hahaha bring your best culinary creations.
- same as rong: no BBQ (smelly and slow and i dunno how to start a fire for nuts and lots of raw leftovers = gross)
+ L4D!! ok this is damn random.
- i dont want the focus to be on me turning 21 cos to me that sucks! dont go like YAY CONGRATS UR AN ADULT. i still feel damn young okay (not childish).
- many many different cliques. like church ppl one corner, cca friends another corner etc.
- actually i would rather parents and siblings not be around cos there are too many constraints. hahaha :p

OKAY i know the list damn short but im really outta ideas.

fine i shall blog bout stuffs thats been happening recently. like i went out with benny yesterday cos i ponned o-week. hahaha and it wasnt pre-planned! i mean ya i planned to pon oweek but not to meet benny! he just randomly msged me in the morning cos he was given off! yeay! we wanted to eat soup spoon but it didnt happen :( haha benny is soup spoon's latest fan. then we went suntec. shot hoops at the arcade hahaha we broke the high score! 490+ i think. watched the hangover and i used STUDENT DISCOUNT haha yay its great to be student again! and ZOMG we went into the ladies toilet by accident!!! so embarrassing! and we even went inside the cubicle to pee already and we were talking like across the cubicle door.
benny: eh so weird why this toilet no urinals one ah?
me: ermm shittt are we in the wrong toilet??
random lady voice from a cubicle between mine and benny's: hey excuse me?
-silence for like 10 secs
then i heard benny's door open LOL so i opened mine too and we quickly ran out. and benny said the lady was looking at him as he made his exit lol.

today i was supposed to go back to oweek but had flu symptoms when i woke up this morning. so didnt go. actually still feeling the flu now. hope i can recover by tmr morning so i can go sentosa! alot of ppl i know are down with flu/fever la. shit man i confirm got it from one of them. argh being sick sucks. cannot do this cannot do that.

and i just found out something about wongggggg omg.

ok anyway 1st 2 days of oweek was pretty boring. flag day was ghey and uber slack. we watched FIGHTING during the time we were supposed to be collecting lol. i slept thru alot of it. cos there were supposed to be 4 fight scenes and everyone kept talking bout how he fought with this fat man. and im like "huh got fat man meh?" and we had lunch at swensens too haha. really damn slack la. anw swensens got 1 for 1 lunch deal haha budget i like! Caleb Wong likes this! hahahah. but like 1/3 the og disappeared after lunch. and after the movie, everyone else left except for me, 2 other guys and the ogl. damn sad sia. so the 4 of us headed to outram to return the whole og's tin cans. and then i was supposed to meet my chess camp ppl in town but i was early. so i walked ard orchard central for the 1st time. saw the rock wall which was quite small actually. then met rong to borrow sajc tie hahah its supposed to be for finale night tmr! i hope i get the chance to use it sia since im like still sick now and i dunno if i can actually go tmr. anw had dinner with chess ppl chicago steakhouse at cine. i think the dinner was quite sucky tho. we had planned to watch the hangover but there were no tix so we bought tix for some chinese show called overheard. i knew thats it i gg already sure sleep through lol. which really happened hHAHA. anw we had time before the movie so we went to play pool. hahaha damn long nv play already but i got to show my proness (or tyconess). ok not bad i won 2 out of 2 games straight!

okay i like totally didnt blog bout the whole of last week. tho many things happened. i should blog more regularly too cos its damn hard to recall everything in detail now hahah. ermm matriculation on tues, went to visit kev at work with rong after that. in an ultra sweaty shirt hahahh. thurs had oday. and bidding started. and all the blur noobs like myself started panicking hahah. but rong and kevin helped lots! :) got my 2 modules in the 1st round. oh yes i drove myself to ecp too! yay i hope i can do that more often. OHYA army half marathon is coming soon 16aug!! i should do one last training run this sun or smth. and there is race pack collection too. ok this is my summary for the whole of last week.

bss - swimmers:

I was
Waiting for you
I was
Standing around
I was
Getting older
I was
Going down

If you always get up late
You'll never be on time
If you always make it after lunch

I've done work
Oh, the day never comes
And I stand up
Waiting on

I saw you down there
I know you were tired
I saw you
You looked like a swimmer

I wanna be with you
All of the time
Why can't you satisfy?

You look good
But you sound better
You were the best I had

If you always get up late
You're never gonna be on time
If you always get up late
You're never gonna be on time

And that's a shame
Cause I like you
I never see you

Monday, July 27, 2009

chao camper

ok updates on chess camp! fun bunch of ppl thankfully. i think my og was the most happening. but in a different way from booza. booza was the super enthu chiong for every game kinda happening. this time juyame is the total opposite. yes juyame is the name of my og in chessss. and we are damn slack! always dunno where the ogls disappear to. and like the games we play also bo chap one. haha got one game where we had balloons tied to our arms which represent our 'lives' and we were supposed to like burst other og's balloons. but we just stood in the middle of the field and let ppl burst ours. hahaha retards. and dunno who came up with this idea of all standing in a circle and pointing somewhere at the ground pretending got something interesting there. self amusement sia. hah!

the guy to girl ration was almost 2:1 anyway haha! and 2 of the girls in my og were non chem eng one la. just came to make up the numbers for girls. got one medicine one some more walao. and im a medicine reject zzzz. and she had ben er as her sp in her prev camp HAHA! i tried to control my bitching tendencies when she asked me what i knew about him. AND a crasher girl who came on our final night said i look like a butch!! omgwth! she said 'is your name christabel?' and what i should go chij or crescent girls to pick up girlfriends. (haha seriously i wouldnt mind chij :p) and then later she say i look like tao li the swimmer. whattttttt! they bought drinks on the last night also. but i gave up after drinking just a bit cos the alcohol taste kinda turned me off. hahaha esp after what happened at kev's party :P did i mention i puked when i reached home that night after the party? lucky everyone was asleep already.

shit now im quite stressed about bidding for modules. especially cos im taking double major and i dun wanna waste time taking useless stuff. helppppp! but really i couldnt possibly have kept awake during the intro talk last fri la. it was right after the camp ended. and i didnt sleep at all the night before some more.

just now the chess camp ppl were having mass convo and i just found out that they caught me drooling during the intro talk OMGG. i can just shoot myself. how can i malu myself on the 1st week siaaaaaaaa omgggggg!

oh yea some of the guys in chess camp joined just to know girls. i feel la. i mean its not wrong, but dont make it the top priority leh its damn stupid. like even to the extent of planning how to integrate the girls into supper talks at night and how to find out their traffic light status all those. walao! even after 2 yr ns also cannot be this despo right!

kena another scandal with this girl in my og again la. suaynesssss. just because she said i look like wu shi kai. (i dont even know who is that, apparently some taiwan singer popular 20 yrs ago)

but as i always tell benny, HANDS DOWN the best is ________ HAHAHA! besides fiona xie and emma watson that is.

yes on a random note we got new obsession - emma watson! the new face for burberry. haha benny almost drooled when we saw her pic as we walked past the store in ion. AND we saw a certain black shit there too with his toyboysszzz wearing sunglasses?!?!

and outing with benny and brian yesterday too! wanted to go bowling at marina cos it was what we used to do during sec sch days hahaha. but really last time bowling was quite happening right? there was even a bowling alley on top of cine which was perpetually crowded. ppl actually have bowling as part of their outing plan! but now, its just movies, clubbing, dinner. so we didnt bowl but we spent like $20 at arcade games. hahaha. brian is freakin zhai at bishi bashi. u know the game where u are the mambo king with the afro that grows after every round if u get the rhythm correct? omg brian scored like near full pts for that one. he says cos he used to play bishi bashi on his ps last time and they always repeat the same sequence in the games. LOL. so we've been wasting our money at the arcades. and as usual the l4d session. hahaha this time even more hardcore. we played 3 hrs cos there was a bundle package special promotion. wah damn shag man. and we tried expert difficulty. wahlao there was once i had 60 health and i accidentally walked in front of benny's scope (he was using sniper) and next thing i knew i was incapitated. hahaha. by 1 shot from his sniper wth! and the tank also incapacitates players with 1 hit.

im gonna miss brian! and his ba zhang smell haha. oh yea he was wearing a shirt on top of a tshirt yesterday. and at one point he took it off and asked if he could put it in my bag. i said "smelly". he said "ya got ba zhang".

anyway HANDS DOWN, by dashboard confessional. one of my favssss!

Breathe in for luck
Breathe in so deep
This air is blessed, you share with me
This night is wild, so calm and dull
These hearts, they race, from self-control
Your legs are smooth, as they graze mine
We're doing fine
We're doing nothing at all

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me?
So I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer

The words are hushed, "let's not get busted."
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered
Safe in here from all the stupid questions
"Hey did you get some?"
Man that is so dumb
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close, they can't hear
So we can get some

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember
Always remember the sound of the stereo
The dim of the soft lights
The scent of your hair, that you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock, when we realized "It's so late!"
And this walk that we share together
The streets were wet, and the gate was locked,
So I jumped it, and let you in
And you stood at the door, with your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew...that you meant it.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

addicted to those glances

she's no saint, she's no saint, she's no saint
but she'll take you to your knees
try her boy, but she'll still do what she please
do you believe in science? she's perfect chemistry
she wanted my love but i gave her the rest of me

yess im supposed to blog about langkawi trip but i procrastinate again. busy busy busyyyyyyyy! i hardly have time for myself. and im one person that needs alot of alone time (i think). not in a sick perverted way okay! for REAL.

attended first cell group meeting on fri night. felt really weird there. like im miles away from Him. im at a really low point in church life now. and the worst part is that im too ____ to do anything about it.

retail therapy with benneh and esther's bday party and kevin's bday party. and soccer in the morn. and og supper on sun night which i didnt attend. heard that more bitching was going on hahah. okok gotta sleep! chess camp tmrrr i dont wanna zombiefy! though i think im already 3 quarters there.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

didnt know im not invincible

and maybe some things are better left unsaid
but if you wanted to test that, I will, yeah, I guess, I could've said

ogay im finally gonna write some stuff bout union camp with booza! started off not so well cos me and sebas reached there late hahaha. alighted wrong stop after boarding the shuttle bus in nus. so we were one of the last few to arrive, and i was already sweating alot i rmb. and they had temperature taking some more. i thought gg. but okay went in and joined the group and everyone was pretty quiet and intimidating. the councilors especially. haha i felt like they were pissed with me for some reason i dunno! okayyy anyway i really put in alot of effort to try and be sociable and stuff la. honestly if u know me well enough you should know im really not into this kinda woohoo orientation meet new ppl kinda things. some more 1st day they bring us to sentosa for beach games already. so i was quite sianned and thinking at the back of my mind "omg damn retarded what am i doing here playing retarded games like DOG & BONE" hahahah! and 1 thing i hate is WHACKO! cos i suck at remembering ppls names hahaha especially chinese ones. walao! then everytime got a little bit of free time someone will suggest playing one of those 'orientation' games like the clap clap animal game thingy. and then suddenly dunno who started one of those "open close open close open or close?" games. wah then GG. everyone started playing their own version of that genre of game. wah piangaazzzzzzzzzz! i must seem pretty anti social but its really how i feel wut.

but things got better from the 2nd day onwards! i most of the og mates are pretty nice ppl. not because of looks only okay im not THAT superficial lol. and the guys are quite funny also! didnt expect sebas soh to be so retarded cos i thought he was some beng beng kind. but 1 or 2 of the guys seemed a little too AA but its not that bad. haha. can see our og is one level up compared to the other ogs! especially hippies LOL. why all their councilors all black one ah? we had a amazing race sort of thing. but travelled mostly around nus and botanic gardens only. SP night was one of the most memorable things in the camp la duhhh. hahahaha. some more some ppl go and stir shit la ask me go and do what dirty dancing in front of sp. chio leh, add! walao actually all the guys keep saying what aiya just bo chap wear tshirt shorts an slippers go up the flyer. but i think secretly everyone wanna impress the girls one lor. last min everyone changed into their formal wear. went fong seng for prata after we got back at night. and HTHT with a few of them in one of the girls' room. omg they played some whack leg game again lucky i never kena called. wah got phobia now after kena whack by lai meng on 1st day. and then they played the "i've never.." game too. hahaha many secrets revealed.

missed pool games and slumber party on 3rd day cos i went to collect my passport and send fawn off. left early on last day too cos of alvin and peiyu's departure. sigh usually last day is quite exciting one. got war games some more! i was pretty sad i had to miss it :( haha i can see the difference in my mood from 1st day to last day.

anywayss i wanna go cut hair now! and i got a list of stuff to buy. i think self shopping will be good! il come back and blog abt langkawi some other time!

stay

how did we become so broken?

union camp's over, langkawi flew past. i definitely enjoyed both. but whats next? so much happened this month! yet i still feel like im not where im supposed to be.

anyway i need ideas! for many stuffzz worzzz.

lol shawn's favourite phrase now: tok gong ah! i guess the main reason why i enjoyed langkawi so much was the company. the places we went to werent exactly the most exciting anyway. but it was pure brainless fun with the sas guys! haha even though i wasnt very close to kum long and puden before the trip. but no politics/ popularity competition. and mix in a cui proton saga lol!

Thursday, July 02, 2009

they are not you

to be nobody but yourself, in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle, which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.

peiyu sent me a nice song today! haha we are both weirdus. and she thinks farfetch'd is a chicken hahaha. culinary competition okay im GAME.

i decided im gonna do the second major in management, as kevin suggested. oh my, school is coming all too soon. union camp. omg. why did i even.. argh. but i had to do it, like i had a choice.

anyway, choco chip muffins! yes im ready for the firing squad.

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and il just pretend.