Sunday, June 25, 2017

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Set me down gently

I keep telling myself I'm done being the good guy. But then I'm not.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Enjoy the Silence

Beautifully tragic.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

And when it was over,
nothing defined us
other than the moments
that made us feel free.

Did it ever start though?

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Always and forever

If I scream at the top of my lungs
Will you hear what I don't say?

I'll put on a performance
I'll put on a brave face

Whisper my name - I'll be there

Monday, June 19, 2017


Fill me up
Then leave me to die

Saturday, June 17, 2017

Had enough for the year
If you want you can take it

Wasted Youth

I really fucked myself up this time. Tired. So tired. And yet shit still has to get done. It never ends.

Good, good. Let the hate flow through you.

Friday, June 16, 2017

bleed out

Fucking parachute men.

Will I ever see the light again?


Let me sleep
I am tired of my grief
And I would like you
To love me, to love me, to love me

This is the night when these woods sigh

Come with me
There are people who cannot speak
Without smiling

They would take me from your hand
Or they would try, they would try
This is the murmur of the land
This is the sound of love's marching band
And how they hold you like a gun
And how I sing you like a song
I heard when I was young
And buried for a night like this

Day 58: the breakdown

Was it inevitable? Nope. I still believe things only changed when H happened. Zero respect dude. Irresponsible; shameless. But if that gets you what you think you deserve.. who am I to judge? I've nothing. Am nothing. To think I've always enjoyed playing the Dark Side in games, I should have known "the Dark Side of the Force is a pathway to many abilities some consider to be unnatural". I don't know if I'd ever be able to forgive. How do you forgive someone who "parachutes" in and denies your most precious?

Sorry V if you're reading this. Had to let it out somewhere. No doubt one day I'll be better. But for now, please know that I never regretted knowing you. It'll take a lifetime to forget.

Tomorrow I'll get back on my feet. Get shit done. Move through life like I always do. And hope to find some meaning in this mess. Tonight, let me sleep.